When Austin was around 10 months old, he was sitting on the floor playing by himself. My mother just happened to be over that day and said "I have never seen a baby so content to play all alone like that." I remember stopping and turning my head towards Austin and looking at him, with his toys, playing and smiling. I didn't think anything was wrong by the way he was playing. Although, the fact that my mother had been around a lot of children and had said this, should have made my hair stand up on my neck like a startled porcupine! (It does today when I look back.) Of course, I told her, which was the truth, I rarely played with Austin because my mother in-law would give me a hard time. She would say, he was happy playing alone and to leave him be, over and over again. (You see, her son, my husband, was a needy baby to her. She always had to play with him, it made him happy. Funny how children can be that way! lol!) I blamed myself when Austin's social skills started to be questioned later on and I figured if I had played with him more, he would have interacted better with other children. I sobbed telling Austin's first speech therapist this one day. It was tough. I really thought it was all my fault.
I think of my mother saying what she did to me that day. I can still see the look on her face, just like it was yesterday. It will never go away. I didn't pay the attention I should have then, even though I thought it was an odd thing for her to say. I was a first time mother, and of course, I dismissed things easily. Right Tink? ;)
Stay tuned, more time warp posts to come! *HUGS*