Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Hurting Heart

Today I took Kaleigh in for a speech assessment.  She has had two falls and lost some front teeth because of them.  I started to become concerned about her speech so I took her in today to be seen.  It wasn't too bad but the speech pathologist did have a few concerns.  We are going to work on somethings and bring her back to speech to make sure her speech develops properly.

When the speech therapist was speaking to me, she mentioned that she had a few concerns about Kaleigh's academic development.  There are a few things, not two pages worth but a few.  This is important because Kaleigh's preschool expressed concerns about her back in November.  After listening to the teacher, I decided to have the Psychologist come in and she will be there on the 16th of March to observe Kaleigh.  We are very interested to see what she has to say about Kaleigh.

Today, I came home and I am alone, which does not happen often, but the kids are out with Grandma for a while.  I became very sad so quickly.  I guess the pain of going through Austin's diagnosis is surfacing.  Thinking that Kaleigh may face some challenges, not the same, or as severe as Austin, but something, is crushing my heart.  I am surprised at my reaction.  I have prided myself in taking things in stride and being so headstrong, I run at things head on!  I know the sadness will pass but it is tough.  I will fight just as hard for Kaleigh as I do Austin.  Whatever may come of Kaleigh's evaluation, I know I can deal with it.  Some days though, I feel like my heart could drown in my tears ...



Victoria said...

I'm here if you need me!!!

That being said, I think you've got this under control. You know what to do, who to talk to, what steps to take to make sure Kaleigh stays on track. Even if she got the same diagnosis you would still be ahead of the game--you have experience this time around that you lacked with Austin.

You can do this, no matter what the outcome is. You're strong and amazing. And for days when you don't feel as strong... well, that's what you have us for. <3

Mommie that Gets It said...

Thank you Victoria! I really appreciate your support very much! *HUG*

I have had her assessed twice already just to make sure that she was developing at a typical rate. She is very bright, as is Austin, just in different way. I suspect, if anything, ADD, not ASD. You are right, no matter what, I will jump right in and do what needs to be done. Meanwhile, my husband are going to work with her to try and bring her up to speed. I spend a lot of time working with Austin and we feel it has left Kaleigh a bit out of the loop. That is what I am going to talk about in my next post.

Thank you again! I really do appreciate you!

All the best! *HUGS*

Judy Whatilivefor said...

Do not feel bad about mourning or feeling sad. You already know the path that you may have to face for Kaleigh, and you have the right to feel a bit sad.

That being said, I agree with Victoria...you have already faced this path and have so much more experience/knowledge/understanding that will help you and Kaleigh, no matter the outcome of her evaluation. Kaleigh is so blessed to have you as a mom; to have your experiences and skills to help her.

Mommie that Gets It said...

Hi Judy,

Thank you Judy! Your support and understanding means a lot! :)

Thank you again! That is so sweet of you to say and I really appreciate it too! :)

I hope all is well!